By Adria Giordano Dear daughter, As I write this, I am already crying. She missed all of that, it's her loss. This poem made my cry from the very beginning, this poem hit a soft spot. When you chose a man over me your own daughter and blood. I promised myself that I will never become like her so I studied hard, graduated high school as top of my class and luckily although I didn't go to college I landed a decent job. Oh snow And told me to go to sleep. She's inspired you to do the work. I couldn' t even finish reading it without balling my eyes out. I have three brothers who live with her. She ran off with my father's best friend. Let go of whatever anger you may feel. Today, I am about to graduate high school, the first in my family. By Caroline Gray. While Pepper, on the other hand, is occasionally a little mean and aggressive. I haven't spoken to him in 17 yearsit's sad. I owe her nothing, I honor her as my birth mother and that's it. Behind your shadow, Thanks for reading my story, Mom, you left me on October 4th, 2015. And then you had a heart attack. Be that ourselves or our friends. They took turns trying to bully me, as I was in the way of their plans to take over daddys cabin. did you hear a sound? So I understand the feeling a lot more than others would. She wouldn't leave me no she got with lots of men and she let them hit me with whatever they wanted. After a couple months she disappeared yet again. you can be a mom I dont know where I went wrong. September 08, 2017. by Terrie Vanover. My younger siblings ended up in custody of our grandparents, but I lived on the streets, I was barely a teenager at the time. By Aidan Gardiner. You ask. I started crying even more than I already was. I know my mum probably had a good reason for giving me up, but I sometimes feel all these emotions. I go dizzy with swirls mardibra Member Posts: 10. It has been hardwired into who I am since I was 12 years old since the moment I watched my mom walk out the door for the last time. That isn't new information and I'm sure it's hard to read, but just hear me out. you cannot forget. "She didn't fight for me." At 51, you were put on earth to help others, not suffer the same fate by talking about it. I'm thirty nine now and I thought I was over that. Right now I'm 15 and I'm not having a baby. he had stopped paying it for a while as my aunt was the one watching us, and naturally he made sure we had everything we needed and he paid for everything my entire senior . That Sunday morning my father woke me up telling me "wake up your mom is leaving us" my father had tears running down his face and I ran outside and tried to block the passenger door of the man picking her up from our home, my mother let one single tear run down her face and she pushed me into some bushes so she could hurry and leave before she could break down. Losing you was the hardest thing I never chose to do. I will share this poem with my husband and children instead of getting tearful or angry. Hi Elisha, She gave us a big hole in our hearts.. a feeling of emptiness and loneliness and time never made it easier to bear. I have called you by name; you are mine. How do I explained to my daughter that it's not her fault and what do I say when she asks about her. She is an evil bitch'. The way you feel about your mother in this poem, explains exactly how I felt about mine. I had not noticed it until that moment. You can also follow . The light of Christ, the unfailing hope and grace through Him alone, helped me to rise up. tears run down my face, Can costs go any higher? I leave them in God's hands. You've made it this far, and you still got a lot of good things coming your way. I know something, My love for dogs makes me do things like walk up to strangers on the street to pet their dog or cry uncontrollably when a dog dies in a movie. I will never forgive her. this poem really hit home with me the only difference is that my mom was still around my older brothers but when I was 8 my mom and dad got a divorce and I lived with my dad and I would go to my moms sometimes after school and one day I went there when I was 12 and had a note on the table that said "went to Florida, bye" she called a few times while she was gone and came back to KY when I was 20 and wanted to be part of my life it is hard and she is a drug addict so makes it harder. I saw with my own, two eyes that you did not care if I lived or died. Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. That you couldn't hold a candle to. hides behind this smile. PS: I didn't write letters to your mom. I still lack the tools to deal with them. You spend your whole life trying to replace what you lost. It doesnt let your mind wander or drift off to all of the homework you have or all of the bills you have to pay. by Jennifer Starr, The Millennial Fear of Vulnerability Is Clouding Our Newly Created Bonds. I haven't seen her in 14 to 16 years I have lost count. Most Viewed. Watching what you did would bring some humanity to my pain, but you wanted to leave me with nothing. I should know, I am that child. My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding Ruined My Life: An Open Letter to Channel 4. Now Im beginning to understand that theres a middle place between hatred and anger. This really touched me as well, My mom left both me and my sister with my grand parents I was 6 months and my sister was 11 years old. to show a real smile. We didn't see her for around seven years. And that's what kept and keeps me going. I don't think that's true. Narrowly missing the cut, but rounding out the Top 20 most expensive colleges: All have something in common: tuition & fees are $60k or more. Only you will know. Did you spell check your submission? Your attempt to break me failed. Hello! This poem really hit home, it truly is hard growing up without a mom to do all of the things a mom should do. She lived in Omaha, and now Arizona. 123RF. HA not really; I'll probably sit in bed and watch Netflix all day. At least someone understands, thanks. He left his kids and his wife to be with my mother. I will never forget the day all the hate started. My father and my adoptive mom {still my mom} have taken care of me for 13 years. My Mom left me & my Brother & Sister when I was 3. I have exactly two friends and my step mother hates me. I would actually rather say I didnt know my mother. I needed to listen to your words of encouragement every morning, your advice and above all for you to make it clear that no man should treat me poorly, because I am valuable. 10. More than anyone else, He understood me. Here it is. Now what kind of a mother would do that. This poem sums up all my feelings, I can totally relate to it. My mom left us when I was 12 my sister was 10 and my brother was 8. This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator. What did I ever do to her? The first is the therapist-patient relationship. Make sure that the child understands that the father's decision to abandon had nothing to do with who the child is. I am a child of abandonment. So my dad would meet her half way so I could spend a weekend with her maybe once a month, usually I just went to her parents house, an hour drive from our house, so I'd at least be part of that family. This song will break your heart, but it has a hopeful message that comforts many listeners. It's very difficult for people to understand how having a mum who leaves makes a person feel or react to situations. Now that I'm a bit older, I recognize that I didn't always make life easy. He slaps on bandage after bandage, sweating bullets, as he practices for hours. Meaning Im not sure if I hate you or just strongly dislike you. You should know that I lived. They're pathetic, they're nothing, they're gone. I miss having a mum to be honest. What I can say is by the grace of god, Dad had his will revised. But as anyone who has ever been left by a parent can tell you, it will never make sense to a child. 572. I was seventeen when I had my daughter and nineteen years old when I had my son. A mysterious man confidently strolls in and orders Andrew to play double time swing. My mother has never really been in my life. Her husband is very overbearing and thinks we should just accept him as a family member. a mama and I wouldn't give up being a mama for anything in the world! And He can handle that other person too.The best definition I have found is: "I choose not to hurt you for hurting me." I couldnt spend the rest of my life without saying that. I was forced to be their parent at a young age. Because years later, I dont understand it. You see, the funny thing is that my mother had several chances to leave him but she never would. And it hurts. My mother had 3 kids, 1 boy and 2 girls. He knows I can surpass everything. This is so honest and I'm glad so many people can relate because there aren't exactly any songs written about this. 20. I say you lucked out she doesn't deserve you. I relate to it differently each time. I love my mom. This poem touched me, thank you. Strangers on the street begin to look like them. I love music a lot and one of my idols, Gerard Way, says that the best revenge is making it. She didn't plan me like she did my little brother. Love yourself enough to let go. We will continue to spotlight top response articles on our homepage every week, and in our newsletter Overheard on Odyssey. My scars will always be there but it is a refreshing feeling when I can look to the future with the past well behind me. How to write a letter to birth mother from . As a result, those of us who struggle with loving . I'm 27 now, I've done great things, I graduated college, I'm a twice deployed vet of the us army, I was a welding instructor in Iraq for a year and taught over 150 students. The combatants? It makes sense that you're seeking . Right! Either way, I want you to know you have nearly ruined my heart. to myself I lie. He also had a family. I know there are others like me. Mission accomplished. And Simmons unflinching portrayal is equally as good. Then I began to see more clearly. Now I'm 20, and I miss the feeling of having mother. I love her, so much bad happened, I do not know how to express anything. Unfortunately with my reentry into your lives, it has affected Ryne, Sever, Brett, and Jenna both negatively and positively. Time has been flying. Terms. Dear Absent Fathers, Your children don't have the ability to articulate their feelings and as someone who was abandoned by her father, I'm here as their voice. I have been featured on MSN, Yahoo!, YourTango, Teen Vogue, and Unwritten. I want spring break. I hope it all comes rushing to you and the feelings of guilt and regret overwhelm you. September 2012 #1. she lives a mile from me now and we still rarely talk she calls me when she's drunk or high. And when the two clash, lots of sparks fly. Following my parent's divorce, I began writing and I haven't been able to stop since. Hiring a geriatric care manager (also known as Aging Life Care Professionals) is an excellent option for ensuring a parent gets the care they require. I wish I could tell you my story - it's a little like yours, but somewhat worse. I have the same type of parents. All of my friends have amazing caring mums. I am very much thankful that my grandparents were there to love and support me. I don't know what went wrong!?! I set my boundaries, yes. He never wanted to leave but I wasn't going to bury a child. I have two gorgeous young man that don't really want anything to do with me because of my sorry life. We stayed in touch for a year but she's an alcoholic and a drug addict and so we moved to try and stay away from her but she just keeps finding us and has tried to break in to our house and has stole stuff from us. A farewell letter to the father who abandoned me - but could Caroline Gray forgive him for 30 years of betrayal? But now that I'm 13. And without knowing it, you nurture anger and bitterness. The relationship with this woman ended, and I take the blame for that. My older brother, he's in jail. As I now know what it feels to a parent, I would go to the ends of the earth for them and I love the so much I could self combust!! My mom left me when I was four. Thanks for your words. It made me smile. Kristen Haddox, Penn State University4. That was the worst thing you could do to me. And thats what kept and keeps me going. The most recent comes from my fathers death. Published: Jan. 24, 2023 at 2:55 PM PST. They hated me. I have no contact with them. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world. Lucille Ball. No one seems to understand why I get upset over little things. My mother abandoned us as well. I am blessed! The copyright of all poems on this website belong to the individual authors. She kept my older brother and baby sister. She was sitting on the floor crying, and she had a bottle of something by her side. I hate my mom so much that I can't even explain. I am praying that soon I can be back in their life. Photo illustration by Sarina Finkelstein; Getty Images (2). Now, living in Blacksburg, we have plenty of cold winter days even when it isnt winter any more. Pray for your father. I have never done drugs beat my children or was abusive to them. My mom has always been in and out of my life. All I could think about was the gun I'd found in her bedroom a few days prior. Every night I think I was surprised how deeply I felt about this years later, so I decided to speak with a professional to see if my feelings were common. I know its hard - it was very hard for me (And I mean very). My father and my adoptive mom {still my mom} have taken care of me for 13 years. If you have never been left by a parent you wont understand. I'd like to start repairing the hurt and have you rebuild your . My mother didn't abandon me and my sister but she basically chose a man (which was my step father) over my sister and I. My mom and dad had a one night stand and my mom got pregnant with me by accident. I still come back to this poem. So Mom, I want you to know that Im working on being better than you in all areas of my life. Some people shouldn't have kids Hi, I know what its like to not have your parents in your life but instead of not having one gone both of them were gone ..they're both drug addicts who have been in and out of prison ever since I was born ..they did have my sister up until recently but they were abusing her and are drug dealers still today. I lost count of how many loads of laundry I did, cleaned my kitchen, cooked three meals, spent hours trying to assuage my angry I couldnt spend the rest of my life without saying that. My sister never got over it and ran away from home again with my mother as of the age of 18. Dear Abby is written by Abigail Van Buren, also known as Jeanne Phillips, and was founded by her mother, Pauline Phillips. 17 years later and I'm still so hurt. I will never forgive her. Mum was confined to a wheelchair and was allowed home weekends at first. I want the beach. My oldest sister lived with our dad in a different state and my middle sister and I lived with our mother. But I can promise you that youre 92 percent of the reason there are deep, empty pits in my heart. She now travels the world completely guilt free while we continue to work on healing our wounds. Your name means "Joyful Spirit" and it fits you to a T. I remember the glorious hours I spent nursing you, rocking you and singing lullabies to you, while you smiled up at me. I think its because I'm upset all the time if that makes sense? Man, how strong the feelings you share, and I thank you for sharing them. [Difficult, but not impossible.] I couldnt spend the rest of my life without saying that. I'm grown with a family of my own now, and I now have a relationship with my mother who is out of prison. Yes, I still make mistakes, but I learn from my mistakes and keep moving forward. Share Your Story Here. I am college student from Matthews, NC. This made me cry! 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